Denial is not just a river in Egypt

I had originally started this blob with the intention of it being about books and how I love them, but as you can see I only made two posts and then certain personal issues made me push it aside. I've decided to take my blog in a different direction and instead of making another one, I'm just going to overhaul this one.

It's going to be part fitness blog in the future, but at the moment it's more a place to sort out my shit, make hopefully witty observations about life... and occasionally write things book related, even though lately it's been taking me a lot to write anything about any book even ones I love. But reading and writing are such a big part of my life it has to be included in there somewhere.

I don't want to be all whiny and blahblahblah. My life hasn't been by any means perfect, but I have things to be grateful for. Then again I also don't want this blog to be all my life is so perfect blahblahblah. But I do need to remind myself sometimes of the things in my life that are good. I'm content with my life and the direction it's taking, but I have things I'm still not happy with such as my self image, my weight and just generally my being out of shape.

My ultimate goal is not just reaching a goal weight and staying there, although I'll get into that down the road (ha! Pun), it's more so to get to the place where I can be happy with who I am, the way I'm living and how I look. I've gotten very good at introspection in my 27 (28 in a few weeks) years, but I am also very very good at denial...

I'm hoping writing things down will keep me honest. I'm not very good at expressing myself or my feelings and I bottle things up which leads to me doing stupid things. So here's to me not doing stupid things anymore!